New Years and I have been in a bad relationship for as long as I can remember. I have never considered her a friend.
As a young woman I recall that just about everyone I knew would be looking forward to their new years holiday plans with anticipation. I was never very excited about mine. I tried to feel good about them. I really did. But I just couldn’t muster up even one little ‘give a damn’.
I’m sure this was directly related to the fact that each time I did try to go out and join in the festivities, I found myself even more disappointed than the last.
Other holidays weren’t like this for me. I rather enjoyed them. Even with the fact that as a single mom I had to work through much of them, I made it a point to make the very best of the time I could squeeze in to celebrate.
But new years … UGH! She was always a disappointment. Or worse. Usually worse ☹️
Eventually, I turned my back on her completely. I haven’t acknowledged her presence in many, many years. I just sort of let her come and go without so much as a turn of my head.
This year I am going to try to make amends with this difficult creature who spends but one day (two if you count new years eve) a year with us.
I’m not going to try to make up for lost time. That would be senseless. And at this point it feels as though jumping right into traditional celebrations would be a disaster. It’s just asking for more of a mindset alteration than I am willing to entertain!
I’m going to plan a simple day. A day of quiet contemplation. Done with a positive attitude. And carried out in very warm fuzzy pajamas.
It is guaranteed to be cold as hell here in northern Maine. So there will be a toasty fire burning in the woodstove. Creating the perfect atmosphere for me to just sink into a day filled with self-indulgence.
There will be a mini-brunch spread in the early afternoon. It can be grazing material for the entire day. Freeing me from the kitchen, so I can focus on something more relaxing. Perhaps, a sewing project. Or finishing up the granny square lap blanket I’ve been working on. Or maybe I will immerse myself in the pages of a good book, leaving my world behind to become part of another’s.
In the evening, there will be candles lit throughout my home. They will burn brightly, ushering in good vibes for the upcoming year. The intention placed behind their lighting will be to perpetuate the atmosphere of peace and serenity which has been actively cultivated there throughout the day.
There will be card games, or movies, or both. There will be plenty of play time and sweet, warm snuggles with the king of the house (my bulldogge). And there will be laughter. Lots and lots of laughter.
When the day is complete, and I lay my head down to rest, I will know that the journey to reconciliation with this holiday I have been at odds with for so very long has indeed begun ❤️
How will you be spending your holiday this year? Do you have fond memories of past new years celebrations? Or have you too had a rocky relationship with this special day?
I’d love to hear about your experiences! So meet me in the comments below and fill me in 😉
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